***SPOILER: you should read Darkness Calls (book #1 in the Blood Secret series) before you read any of the chapters for Against the Light that are on the blog***
Chapter 3
Ari
Shaking my head, I cleared the thoughts bouncing around
frantically. “What made him change his mind? We both know how he
gets when his mind is set on something, and I don't see this as
something he would easily cave on.”
“Well that's the thing. I have a friend who knows the
young healer here in Seraphrost,” he began, but I was sure I
misunderstood.
“Chicago you mean?”
“Nope. Surprise,” he said cautiously. “Welcome to
Seraphrost.” He smiled, but it was strained. I couldn't make
anything out over the last week from, what looked like, the inside of
a psych ward room. I assumed I was in Chicago where I should be
living. The dark curtains were drawn down over the one window in the
room that sat way up by the ceiling. My curiosity spiked in spite of
not wanting to be here.
“Right. We'll get to that I guess?” He nodded and
continued answering my first question.
“So the young healer...I kind of had her do me a favor
and slip your dad something in his dinner last night to knock him out
for awhile so I could come in here.” Cam's eyes searched mine
wearily, and I burst out laughing. “I don't know what you think is
so funny, he's gonna be pissed if he finds out.”
Laughing felt good. Normal. Something I had missed in my
life recently. The barrier that naturally went up after everything
with Jesse started to slip gradually, but as soon as I sensed the
change I slammed the brick wall back up. Emotions made people weak
and got people hurt.
“Ari, you were slipping and fast. No one believed our
bond was strong enough to put you through seeing me, but I knew
better. They can crucify me for all I care, but I couldn't wait
around any longer when I knew they weren't doing anything to actually
help you.”
Cam maneuvered his hand inside the blanket, and his
fingertips rolled over the skin at the bottom of my back tracing
small circular patterns.
“Cam,” I leaned away from his touch, and the pain
etched in lines surrounding his eyes pulled at my fractured soul, but
I couldn't give in. “This isn't going to happen. Ever.”
“That's not why I'm here.” His hand receded from my
skin and he wrapped the blanket tightly back in place.
“You say it isn't, but we both know otherwise. Look,
everyone in my life lied to me, kept me in the dark and put my life
at risk.” Darkness provoked me, hooked its dark claws into every
pore of my body dripping itself into me. “Shit happened and it
changed me more than I want to admit or talk about right now. I want
to forget, Cam. Whatever I have to do to get back in school for my
senior year and just move on...I'll do what I have to,” those last
words escaped my lips as a promise.
“Then that's what we'll do.” The pause seemed
to put substantial space between us. “Ari, you have to know I
wasn't allowed to tell you anything. I didn't think I could do
anything other than what I had. Yes, I should have tried to figure
something out sooner, I get that now. But,” pools of blue sky urged
me to understand. “I'm here. I'm not going anywhere, and now you
know what I literally couldn't speak about before so there will never
be secrets between us again.”
I wanted to tell him he was right, take his hand in
mine, look deep in his eyes and reassure him that I would be fine,
that I wasn't losing my mind. He knew though, knew I couldn't say
those things because they weren't true, not anymore. Cam just lowered
his head and slowly shook it in disappointment.
“ Right. Well, I know your dad has some people he
wants you to meet here, then I'm sure you two can sit down and figure
something out.” A sarcastic laugh came out louder than I
anticipated. Cam expected miracles if he thought my dad would give
two hoots about what I wanted for my life.
“Yeah, we'll see.” My gaze moved back to the chair
in the corner and I saw clothes there. Suddenly I wanted nothing more
than to get out of this bed and take an actual shower.
“I had some help, but I knew you'd want to shower and
clean up the second you,” he stopped short not knowing how to
continue.
“The second I what, Cam? Woke up to my old self
again?” My eyes narrowed on his. That thought made me laugh even
harder. I wasn't the same warm hearted, wanting to spend all my time
with my best friend, get good grades, good girl as before. That ship
sailed along with the innocence I lost over the summer.
“No, I just thought you'd want to get dressed, go out
and about...thought I could show you around Seraphrost.” One thing
I'd never deny is that smile, the one he reserved specifically for me
because he knew it made my heart race and my knees weak. Even though
I felt less like myself than ever before, his smile had the effect he
was hoping it would.
“I'll let you show me around Seraphrost if you promise
not to leave my side when I confront my dad. You have to tell him you
think it's the right thing to do, for me and you to go back to
school. Finish our senior year, that you'll be there every step of
the way to protect me and see that I don't die.”
“Um, yeah, I mean...obviously I'd stay with you and
protect you,” he eyes searched mine like he wanted to say more, but
I cut in before he could.
“Because that's your job, Cam. To protect me and
nothing else.” I walked past him into the bathroom and started the
shower. Ridding myself of the gown I'd probably had on since arriving
felt amazing. Bruises were lined all along my arms and down by my
ankles. Considering how often the nurses had to strap me down it
surprised me I didn't look worse.
The scalding water should have burned my skin, but I
barely felt the warmth. I closed my eyes envisioning the heat and
soap washing away all the blood from my hands and the darkness
staining my soul.
Tears streamed down my cheeks, and I tried to let go of
those horrible pictures stuck in my mind of my last moments with
Jesse. When it stopped working I called on darkness to bring a sense
of him. In it I was closer to him. People lied to me my whole life,
my life was at stake, and I was a Collector. Any one of those things
would change a person tremendously, but have all three happening at
the same time and it's no coincidence I'm a different girl than
before.
I walked into the room in my towel to have a little fun
with Cam and get out of my head for a while. His eyes about bugged
out of his head when he saw me. The towel was big enough to wrap
around me, and it covered all the important parts, just not much
else. Usually my face turned an embarrassing shade of red, this time
his did the honors.
My eyes lingered on Cam as I walked past heading to the
chair where the clothes sat. Lust emitted from him as he moved to
stand behind me. Strong, warm arms circled my waist, pulling me back
against him so I was flush against his chest. My hair swept off my
shoulder as his fingertips brushed my skin, and the smell of sunshine
on a warm summer morning engulfed me.
My head rolled to the side, his lips met my skin. Soft
and gentle they caressed the length of my neck from my shoulder up to
my jaw. Turning quickly, my chest pressed into his. Magically the
towel fell to the floor, and a mischievous grin fell on my lips.
Cam's eyes dropped slightly, but there wasn't much to see since we
were pressed tightly together.
His hands started at my bare shoulders and made their
way down my exposed back, goosebumps marked my flesh with the effect
Cam had on me, and his lips came within centimeters of mine. I called
darkness, winding it around his eyes like a blindfold as I snaked my
way out of his grasp.
“That was fun,” I laughed, prancing for the bathroom
with my clothes in my hand.
This manipulating darkness to get what I want wasn't so
bad. I used to feel the Guardian's light within me, but a connection
to the shadows was my present. Whether by choice, a subconscious
decision to link myself to Jesse, or by evolution of what I needed to
keep myself alive, I wasn't sure.
I threw on my gray skinnies, a white tank with a loose
fitting black tank vest over it, and my well loved high tops. My hair
hung in super loose beachy waves down my back, but I didn't have the
means to do anything to it right this moment, so I headed back out to
the room. Cam sat on the end of the bed waiting for me.
He sauntered over to me, eyes locked on mine. I took a
couple steps back, surprised by the intense sexy smoulder in his eyes
making my legs want a mind of their own. He followed until he was
inches in front of me. My arms hung down at my sides but I couldn't
break the hold his gaze had on me. Cam linked his fingers with mine,
walking me back until I felt the cool wall touch my skin.
Cam deliberately lifted my hands up the wall at a minute
pace. Warm breath caressed my cheek, his mouth moved to the corner of
my lips, but didn't touch me. Both my hands were locked in one of his
as his free hand made its way down the length of my torso scantily
touching areas he never dared to before.
His lips hovered over mine now, my pulse began to speed
up as his tongue traced my bottom lip. My hands were no longer held
by his but they didn't move. One of his hands grabbed my hip tightly
pressing me into him, while the other tangled in the hair at the base
of my neck. Anticipation of his lips on mine grew, I was at a
breaking point. My hands wound around his neck, and he eliminated any
area of space between every millimeter of our bodies.
And then he let me go, walked toward the door, and moved
to leave me in the room alone. He took all the heat from my body with
him, my breath left me behind to follow him, and my heart beat faster
remembering the places his hands just touched.
I grabbed his wrist turning him around to face me. “What
the hell was,” I was flailing my hands all around in front of
myself. “That?” I demanded, pointing with aggression back
to where we had stood seconds before.
“What?”
“You know what. That little stunt you just pulled,
that's what.”
A sultry smirk played across his lips as he looked at me
with hooded eyes. “If you want to play games Ari, I can play games.
Don't think for one second I don't know what's going on with you
because I do. But if you want to use the darkness to try and toy with
me, or make yourself feel better, or whatever other reason you can
get yourself to believe is good enough, then by all means, I'll use
the lust and the want you have for me deep down. Notice I don't have
to use something I'm not against you, like you using the darkness.
I'm pulling your true emotions out of you. Too bad you can't say the
same for yourself.”
“Oh piss off, Cam. I can do what I want whether you
like it or not.” I leveled him with daggers shooting out of my
eyes.
“And I will take advantage of your new found bad girl
persona whenever you want to let it loose on me. Making you hot,
knowing you want me,” he stepped right to me wrapping his arms
around my waist as his voice dropped low, warm breath caressing my
cheek. “Knowing I can turn you inside out in ways you could never
imagine,” his lips were at my ear making me feel every word
throughout my entire body. “I'm more than happy to play along and
give you whatever you need.” Pulling back he winked at me, giving
me a heartbreakingly gorgeous smile.
Aww, hell.
If I wasn't careful I was going to get into some serious
trouble. I honestly didn't know what I was doing. I knew the light
and goodness in me wasn't as strong as it used to be, and therefore
the darkness stepped in and filled the void. But, I would never be
like the Watchers in Andaemon. Bottom line, I'd begun to get
comfortable in my hybrid-blooded self.
Growing uncomfortable under Cam's gaze, I shifted my
eyes away breaking the hold.
“Let's go and see Seraphrost,” he said with a smile
lighting up his entire face, and he took my hand. I yanked it away
shooting a glare in his direction but he didn't care, he just
chuckled and took it again. This side of Cam, this confident,
physical, expressing his want for me side caught me off guard.
“You keep this crap up Cam and I'm going to unleash
darkness in droves.”
“And I'll be right here with the light to bring you
back from the dark side.” He was serious now. “Always and
forever, Ari.”
I rolled my eyes at him, smacking his arm as we left the
room. One nurse tried to stop us, telling Cam she was calling my dad
immediately, but he waved her off and kept walking. There were
obviously things he wanted to show me before we were chastised by my
dad, so Cam kept moving not giving the nurse a second glance.
*** This is an unedited chapter...please excuse any typos as of now!!***
© Heather Wiginton December 2013